I am. More than a bit, I would say. Of a mess. Personally and physically. I will start with the physical stuff. And leave the rest for later. Maybe combine it all. Who knows, I am just writing.

So, I am morbidly obese. This part, I already knew. I won’t go posting my weight just yet. But, I do have a high BMI of 57. I was happily moving along in life, for the most part, until I developed a dark looking rash and swelling to my leg. I finally made the doctor appointment. I am a nurse, so I usually self treat. But this rash was just not being cooperative. The doc did all the lab work and thorough examination. On the first appointment, he asked me if I had ever thought about gastric bypass. Of course, I had. I have (or had) issues about it. These issues will come up later. I played the waiting game for the labs and such.

The doc calls me back in two days. Venous insufficiency related to my obesity. Of course it was. When you have been obese for as long as I have, seems like EVERYTHING is related to your obesity. So, the big gastric bypass question came up again.

I have two teenage boys. And a husband. I prefer to stick around for a while. This is my journey. The referral has been made. I have my first consultation with a nutritionist on next Tuesday. Any one out there with advice?