Loving you was equally painful as it was sad i felt like i had to love you in secret even though ive been with you for years you told me im to loud and that i embarrassing all i was to you was a room mate that’s what you told people anyways. It always hurt to hear but it was for your job was the famous line you loved to use i would cry my self to sleep some nights wishing you loved me like i loved you i loved you so much it hurt you broke my heart more times then i can possibly remember. i told my self it was the drugs or found some excuse as to why you treated me the way you did you called me fat and a whore when i tested postive for the clap even though ive been faithful all these years turns out you cheated on me serval times over the years what a fool i was to think we could be anything beyond what we were. I loved you so much i was blinded by the evil that stood in front of me. You hit and belittled me made me feel worthless and like i was nothing so much so i planned my way out and i knew when and where id do it bit instead i took to partying and drinking til i was numb eventuality it did the trick and i was ok again. I have scars that will never heal but have faded away in time i remember the first time you told me you loved me i was so happy and full of joy then the next day you acted like you never said it and got mad anytime i brought it up. You enjoyed mind games at my expense ive changed and will never be the same. In some ways you have molded me into the person i am i will never be the same again. I for give you for everything and no longer fear you i didn’t always fear you but there was a time where i feared to even make you mad nothing i did ever changed or made a difference. I see the man you have become and you’ve change a ton your a great man but why couldnt you of been one when i needed you. Our love story ill never regret but it was a toxic love like nothing ive seen before.