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just no idea what to do.
When im around you im overwhelmed with such negitive feelings. That im not myself. I feel as if im dying on the inside. When your so cold towards me I just dont understand it.i feel so alone lik...
id rather be alone
Mom u have no idea how many chances youve blown to have a better relationship w me. Yes im livin with you not bec you offerd but bec we both didnt have a choice. Its seems like no matter what I...
really wow still cant believe
Mom ive been on my own sense I was 19 when you kicked me out, remember. And then I moved back in w you after I turned 28 when I hit a rough patch in my life. Then I took off for 3 months the the ...
blast from the past
The other day I ran into nathans mom. Remember nathan he was my best friend all throughout school. It was funny I said a quick sarcastic joke about you. Then nathans mom said you andyour moms rel...
why
Your my mother and you never prepared for shit. You never defended me when stupid shit happend. Then if I did go to you or stuff going on in my life thats private youd tell anybody that would li...
I will forget and move on.
Mom idk if u are aware of how you affect me? Its hard to believe that ur not. We dont get along. I feel the only reason we even acknowledge each other is bec we have to. Im writing to you in ope...
the UK
Mom I wish you saw how happy I was and how much fun I had while I was in the uk. When I left to go I was so excited to meet my inlaws for hopes my new extended family would be amazing. It obvio...
BIG NEWS
When my long time boyfriend amd I decided to get married we didnt tell anybody rightaway. We wanted to do it in the UK where he is from.So we got our passports and started making arrangements. T...
attacked?
Mom are you mean to me to boost your own self esteem? When your obviously bigger then me you come up to me and say things like these shirts or pants are too big on me so they will prob fit you. ...
communication
Mom ive learned a lot over the years from many people and from my own experances as well. Ive noticed the relationships that are good and solid dosnt matter if parent child, friend friend, or spo...
who are you pretending to be?
Remember mom when I was around 18 or 19 and you became engaged to marry who now is my step dad? When you asked if it was okay to annual your marriage to my dad. So you could get married in the Ca...
parenting or just passing time??
Mom you do tell me that you love me like on my birthday or on other rare occasions. Its just like I said by your actions past and present I doubt your true feelings for me. When I was a teenage...
im letting go of all my questions and saying goodbye
All my life mom ive heard about the child you lost years before I was even a thought. All my life really. You have no ideal how that makes sombody feel. Especially when in your wedding photos yo...
Tired 11-03-13
I love you mom I do. I just think im not capable of liking you or being around you anymore. Its funny when im in the UK or several states away from you im perfectly okay with you. My problem is ...
Book Description
This is my method of venting about my mother. A way for me to free myself of all the built up anger and stressers. So im doing this. I dont want to live feeling like this anymore. I know some of it will probally sound stupid and not make sense to some people. I get some of it will sound petty and it might be. When reading please keep this in mind ive been battling my mother sense I was a preteen and now im about to be 30. Thats another reason I want to be in a better place within myself by time my birthday in march. So thats y I am not leaving anything out.
I welcome anybody to comment. Im turning to the Internet for relief. Venting like this I already feel tons better. Thankyou.
