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22:21
Thought I’d distract myself by watching tv. Can’t find the remote, typical! Had another two vodka, lemonades and actually finished most of my tea which I’d left in the oven. Happy that I’ll have...
19:40
L was going on about ‘takeaway’, felt a little hungry, ate two bags of mini cheddars. In celebration poured myself another vodka, Vimto and lemonade. J didn’t eat much of his tea so has spent th...
19:10
I played frustration with L,N and O. How ironic, it was fun. Life however is frustrating. The first game went well, O won, she was so excited and proud of herself, I hope her life is filled with...
17:31
I cannot eat, I tried. Does it matter anymore? Why am I trying to force it? The children are wolfing down their tea but, they don’t have a care in the world. Life is great for them, only two more...
16:57
I’m such an idiot, promised L his favourite fishfingers and waffles, couldn’t find the waffles anywhere. O started screaming, I ran in to find that N had punched her in the head, I didn’t hear t...
16:04
It was just a little piece of plastic but, it looked like glass in the sink. My brain went from ‘glass’ to ‘blood’ then straight to smelling the blood, feeling the clots bubbling out of me. Pure ...
15:28
O ran downstairs screaming, holding her tiny, smooth forehead. Without thinking I held her little body in mine until her tears subsided. It hurts that she runs to me straight away, it’s breaking ...
14:34
It feels weird typing this, like I’m 14 years old all over again. I’m hoping that this will help me process what is happening, what I’m about to do. I’m also hoping that by writing as much of my ...
Book Description
I’m a mum who is going to die on December 31st!
This is to help me process what I will do and to help others understand the reasons why.
