I need to write out all my thoughts, feelings, and concerns. I feel so clouded and unsure I need to make serious changes to build my life worth living. I am finding it harder and harder to make my life worth living. I hate this self distructive path I have been paving for myself. I need to get brutally honest with myself and allow myself to work through my emotions and feelings so I can logically problem solve. I just want to be a better person, I am tired of letting my demons win and evil touching my soul. I do not want to be this evil person that poisons and hurts the people in my life.