Do you wonder what I love about the drakness the most?

There are no shadows. No poeple with 2 sides. No one is beautifull or ugly. Everybody is them selve. Ugh, i can´t discribe how much I love the darkness. You can hide without even take the effort. And nobody can be seen.

There is no sun who shows the beautifull sides of earth. No sun who sowhs the ugly sides of earth. Everyting is just there. And everything is them trutly self. Because they can´t hide underneath masks. But you can still hide yourselve everywhere. Because like I said, nobody can be seen.

In the darkness you can´t escape the reality. You have to deal with the real consequences. Because the ´I have a bad hair day` problem doesn´t care in the reality. In the darkness you don´t have to be a shame of yourselve and your actions. Nobody can judge you. Can you imagine a world were nobody can be judged? I do. Every night in my dark room the darkness hit me.

Do I want to escape from the darkness? I tried, a couple times. Because the darkness makes me unhappy. But I don´t care anymore. I need the darkness. Not because I want to, but because i´ve learned there is no way out.

What i´m saying is not actually true, to be honest. There is a way out. But i´m tired of trying and trying. Every time I made myself a bit happy, everything collapsed again. That´s making the motivation so much less than it already was…

I trutly want to be happy, but for me there is no way on the long term right now. And every time I fell back, the darkness always got my back. The darkness is macking me feel save. So for now, I´ll keep the save way for a while.

You probably think I´m a psychco now. I can tell you I´m not. I´m just an regular girl who goes to high school and leared how to wear a mask all day. And like I told you when everybody around me is dreaming about there happy lives, the darkness got my back all night long. And by the way, so much credits to mother nature who thought puffy eyes were a good idea.

Good bye for now, L
- Just kidding hahahahah. I´m not going to end this like I´m an psychco anonymous attention seeker. Just letting you no, for the future I´m going to end things with a . There sooooo satisfying! They can end things like I never could.