Just an older note. Trying something new.

She talks about how quickly this feels normal. How it scares her.

Oh love. None of this feels normal.
My life is in disarray. We may not have been perfect, but we were ‘we’ or ‘us’.

This isn’t to say that I won’t be encouraging. I want you to be happy. Yes, I want that to be with me. I hope this road leads back to us. I can’t imagine a life where it isn’t us. Time will tell.

What hurts the most, is knowing I put us here. For all that I’m feeling, I caused this to happen. I am to blame.

What hurts even more, is knowing she deserves better. She deserves better then me. I hope through changes I can be the person that can add to your happiness.

I’m trying to put on a brave face, but I’m hurting. Nothing feels the same, looks the same, smells the same. Trying to stay busy, keep my mind from wandering, as it all falls apart when I don’t.

You’re an amazing woman, and your bravery is to be admired. You’re putting yourself first, working on yourself physically and mentally. It can’t be easy for you and I promise to be there to support you and help you through any challenge that comes. Wether it leads us back together or not, I’ll always be there for you. Of course, I prefer the road that leads back to us, but only time will tell.