I just decided to google an anonymous diary where I can share my heartfelt feelings without the risk of being judgedl. luckily, I found this one.

I am so sad.

It is hard to live with myself. Truth is I have been sad for up to 8 years and I am scared that It might last longer. Happiness drops in from time to time but it is never lasting. I love to live with hope. Right now in my life, I am struggling to keep holding on to hopes. I don’t want to let go. It is sometimes feels like food supply in a famine area. You have a little and you try to manage it till you wake up one morning and realise it has been exhausted. I survive on the minutest glimpse. My supply is exhausting.Letting go is not an option.

I need to survive this.