This is my first post so I don’t even know how to start it. 😅
Anyway. I used to have a loooot of friends since my childhood, but everything changed and now I have only a few. But I’ll talk about what happened today. So my best friend is from internet, because she moved to Germany and we were always really close. But then she got addicted to games I guess? Because one time I said that I’m really not feeling good and that I want to have deep talk. I started writing what happened and her answer was “Oh sorry.. I’m have match rn ttyl”. I WOULD NEVER THOUGHT THAT MY BEST FRIEND COULD SAY THAT TO ME. But she did. And since then we didn’t talk much, she even said that she’s busy and started creating all those excuses but all she does is play games all day. Yesterday I was nervous because me and my crush might’ve had P.E together and I’m always nervous around him so I said ” OMG ****(Her name) i’m having P.E with mysterious boy” “I hope he won’t be at school tomorrow because I’m scared to meet him” and stuff like this. And she was rude to me. Every message became cold? She told me that I always overreact. Anyway.
Today I texted her and said “Hi?” Because she didn’t text me today and she said hi, but she also said that she’s busy. So I was like “Sure. Text me when you won’t be busy”. She texts me hour later we start talking and we had a bit of deep talk but we ended up argueing because I said that we became distand and that all of her messages became cold. We were agueing and she told me that I’m always overreacting and that I always say “Whatever” but how can I not say whatever when she asks me to wait till her match ends? So I said “Thanks. Thank you for letting me know that you dont like me the way I am”. So she started talking mean about me again. Everything ended up like this
“Just try to be alone and think what shit you talk. I didn’t say that I dont like the way you are. I just said that you never try to change anything. But noooo you have to be over dramatic again. When you’ll be calm text me”
All I said was
“I’m calm idk what u talking about. Fine I’ll leave you alone. Text me when you’re not busy if you want to”
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I didn’t know what to do so I searched for blog or diary and found this.. What should I do? 😔 She was only person I trutly trusted, but games changed her. I have a few friends left and I don’t even trust them. I wish I could turn back time.