I am going crazy in my own mind. So many things going in my brain. So many things. I’m feeling like i need to document for the first time. I am just going crazy in my own thoughts. It’s so many things its so hard to document it all. I talk to myself and myself knows it all, but lately neither seem like they understand. I hope i can make it though this ride because i don’t know how much longer i might be able to withstand. I’m trying to breath and try to tell myself everything is alright. but honestly i just feel trapped in a situation that seems as just as bad as my pride, eternal sorrow and suffering that might never end. Trapped inside a curse trying to find light.