So Here Goes,
Im in the windy city and My living situation was bad, When a friend of mine offered his place, I took it up as he needed some rent relief as well so it was a win win for the both of us. Let me fill you all in on a little short back story, This guy my friend who I’m currently living with, Hmm lets call him Mr. Y, Mr. Y and I go back a year we sort of liked each other and since where were both focused on getting out careers on the road we didn’t pursue it, FAST FORWARD, we are still pursing our dreams, even though Im ready to get into something serious he isn’t, so we didn’t even think about a relationship apart from being friends and keeping it platonic, Until on Sunday evening we got drunk on the beach and made out. Now, again he doesn’t want anything to do with anything, said we were drunk and we both have a lot on our plate, I did tell him I wanted something serious, and I don’t do FWB or summer flings. Bare in mind I live with the guy now, I see him everyday, we Study at the same place, we are with each other at least 20 hours a day. I do have pretty strong feelings for him, but he’s cold as ice. Now I’m having a bit of an ego and pride battle with myself about the beach day, Part of me wants to give him the ice cold shoulder he’s giving me too. But a huge part of me feels super rejected and shitty about how things sort of panned out. And i feel tangled into a wide array of emotions from being upset, feeling rejected to having some pretty strong feeling for the guy. I feel a little bit of a mess, I do have a final coming up and with all of this happening its become hard to focus.
well so far thats all , Hope everyone out there is having better luck than I am