i’m so happy to found out this site seriously i really need this kind of stuff, because .. because i need to share my sickness being this useless. i have many friends, i love them i don’t want they to be hurted. i will protect them no matter what, but sometimes what just i do to them i mean to protect them is also hurt them too. and it hurts me so much, how can i hurt my friends with my own hand ?
i hate my self being useless as this. i want to be helpful but what did is do is the flip.
also sometimes my friends didn’t understand me, like hey i need you too when i’m down. but where are they when i need them
it hurts me.
i mean, what am i to you ? you are everything for me, but you ?
i hate beinhg useless, not accepted. i hate myself being like this.
i just want to be not care about this but fuck this mind keep on thinking about this.
sometimes i hate being caring too much.
cause it also hurts me so much.