It’s been so long since I sat here and just let my feelings out. I have bottled it all up that I had to get a second jar because they all don’t fit in just one jar. I have felt so suck lately, feels like I’m going to lose it. I don’t think I can take any of this any longer, it’s nothing I hoped it would be. So many people around me but yet still feel so alone. Only she can bring me joy but he doesn’t. Anything he does frustrates me, doesn’t do anything correctly. Says he’s one thing but I don’t see any of that person he claims to be. If it’s not with me that way then who is he like that with? My heart aches because my visions don’t come true. I love him but is love even enough anymore these days?