For the past 3 years I have been trying to radically change the way I live. I am transitioning into a completely different profession and I am trying learn to have healthy relationships. I didn’t know how awfully bad my relationship wiring was until it almost killed me. I have been working very hard ever sense to never let that happen again. But it’s hard, and i get confused often. I like journal writing because it helps me sort my thoughts out. I don’t generally talk to people about my life and, although I’m often around people at school and work, I’m pretty isolated in that way. I thought posting some entries on here would be a good way for me to start sharing with people the way I wish I could. Maybe it could be a way for me to get closer to being the person I’d like to be and living the life I’d like to have? These are some of my actual journal writings from my laptop. I usually talk about men that I’m dating, sex and relationships. I speak frankly and ask myself a lot of questions I don’t have the answers to.