Just sitting here wondering,and thinking about future. So many things changing in my life, and thinking about how fast time really goes makes me feel sad. I turned 30 this year, and have grown into a different person than i was in my 20’s. I have had many struggles, but mostly learned to be stronger for it. I recently found out I was pregnant with my third baby. 17 weeks as of right now. I was in denial for a little while, and now coming around about it. No matter what I feel blessed to able to carry a baby, and really I am thankful. I already have two children a girl and boy. (9 & 8) I waited along time to have another one. Honestly I always wanted more kids, but my situation was never right. My boyfriend which we aren’t married because life just isn’t perfect, but sometimes it doesn’t have to be, and I know marriage isn’t everything in life. I hate the sound of marriage, and all the pressure it puts on someone. I love being a free spirit person. Sometimes I think getting married would be a new journey though. My boyfriend (fiance) he was recently deployed, and we got pregnant immediately when he got home.This is my story the journey of my life as a mother of three. He recently proposed so we will see if I ever really tie the not? It’s really a mystery! He proposed when he got home. Life is a blessing, and very thankful for everything I have on a daily basis.