I always wanted to tell someone all my feelings but after losing a friendship with the only person I fully trusted I just been bottling up all my feelings,rethinking the past, and a long with the past finally realizing why I felt the way I did, why I made those specific decisions and actions right at that moment. Wishing I could have told those people how I felt but I was hurt and scared. I wish I could let specific people know how i feel about them now, get answers why they treated me the way they did, and why my physical appearance was their “go-to” way of bringing me down hard, When I was in the right and they were in the wrong.