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I used to pick my sister up and we’d ditch school to go to the beach. Even after I moved out, I’d pick her up and take her to school so she wouldn’t have to ride the bus. I’ve picked my sister up...

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Dear [sister-in-law], I hope that, on your own deathbed, your very last thought is of how you harbored hatred and unforgiveness in your heart such that you kept your own brother from saying his l...

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My Husband is at work and the kids are home today so I can’t get drunk or kill myself today. I got responsibilities, yo. Maybe tomorrow.

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Depression is hell on my sobriety. That is all.

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Dear Dr. Hardman: I hate being poor almost as much as you hate me for being poor. Oh, please spare me whosever dogma you regurgitate to yourself about equality or hard work or socialism or lovin...

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I am so weary. I keep trusting and praising God trial after trial. "Lord, I don't know your plans, but I know you are good, and loving, and merciful...I know that through this difficult time, Y...

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A comment from my previous entry: "in theory, I believe church is... a good idea. in practice, I find that... sometimes it can actually be worse than going without. I don't know. I find the chur...

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Oh, what a world! I don't know. I am a freaking mess! But I am so anti-drama that I don't want to let on in my real life. Beside, I don't really have any friends close enough that I would dump...

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I'm so tired of being "in trouble." I'm tired of the criticism. I'm tired of whispering, "Please don't make Daddy angry" to my small children. Last night I was "in trouble" because, when I cou...

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I want to write about everything, but I don't want to write about anything. It's all so damn depressing, yanno? I don't want to fill up pages with all of my husband's transgressions. I feel gu...

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I am alone. I am utterly alone. By the time you read this, I will be gone...having jumped having plummeted off the Winter River bridge. I'd be pretty sad if Open Diary disappeared. I haven't ...

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