Ever been so deep in the cups that your oxygen comes from all the tiny bubbles bursting into life against the walls of glass around you? Even swimming to the surface leaves you with the realization of being swallowed again; reaching for another helmet of air, as you awake further down the drink. Maybe no one notices. Maybe no one cares. Maybe… “no one” is you.

This book follows the author’s ongoing journey with understanding alcohol abuse and dependence. With an unflinching reflection on past experience and current progress, Kai Dael explores their long-standing relationship with “the drink;” what responsibility and recovery mean in light of medical and psychological advances in treatment; and how various cultural mores may hamper - even harm - fellow travelers along addiction road.