I have for a while now been, keeping my eyes on this one officer and last night was the start to something good. The problem that i have is, well he is married as am i but he has an open marriage. My marriage however is far from open, its as closed as a virgins legs “should be”. With all of these things i still cant help myself, i have a problem and i have known about it for a long time now, probably since i was like 12 i had these urges that i wasn’t sure how to deal with. I started having sex super young and then continued to do so all the time after that. I AM A SEX ADDICT, not the kind that people pretend to be,but the real kind, the kind where it feels like i am going to be sick if i don’t have sex, the kind of addict that cheats constantly to feed this hunger that cant be satisfied. I am also so disgusted with myself a lot of the time after but i have also found that the guilt i should have doesn’t exist at least not for me not anymore.... Now that you have some background lets go back to Mr. Officer, we have had this playful flirtatious relationship that has been going on for about 8 years, 8 YEARS we have done almost just about everything but sealed the deed. He is super touchy likes to play and watch but not jump right into the sex act. Last night we sat here in my house on my couch and i felt him tasted him, i watched him touch himself, i watch him get all hot and bothered. i heard his groans and moans, i could sense him wanting more, wanting me. The way he had me feeling was amazing i haven’t felt that way in such a long time. My sex life with my husband is great even amazing at times but a lot of the times it just rushing into having sex and just getting it done, little to no foreplay and my O’s have turned from big and satisfying to okay and wanting more. I have told him (my husband) that i want more i want him to be there more but sometimes that’s hard with both of our life’s getting in the way.

To Be Continued ......