Here’s a cleaned-up version that keeps your personality and honesty while making it easier to read:

Hi! I’m new here.

I guess I have just enough liquid courage to talk about myself today. Yup

Anyway, I’m 37, but I still feel like a teenager most of the time. Anyone who knows me knows I have borderline personality disorder, and sometimes it feels like I’m stuck with a teenage mindset mixed with the life experience of my 20s and 30s.

I’m always looking for friends and companionship, but those connections just don’t seem to happen very often. I’ve been with my girlfriend for 7 years, and she’s incredibly loving and supportive. I love her, and she always has my back. But somehow, I still find myself wanting more connection. Why? I honestly don’t know. That’s just where I am right now.

I was Googling old websites like Xanga and GreatestJournal, and this site popped up. I’m hoping to make some genuine connections here.

A little more about me: I’m a casual gamer and spend way too much time with Animal Crossing and The Sims 4. I vape a lot of THC because, honestly, my brain can be a difficult place to live sometimes. I collect squishies (still searching for the perfect glitter one). I absolutely LOVE music, so send me your favorite songs and artists!

I also love painting, although I haven’t picked up a brush in months because my anxiety has been through the roof. It feels like I’m constantly in survival mode. And of course, I love dog and have three of them myself.