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Rainy Days AND Monday
I saw my first robin this morning!!!!!! YAY! That means Spring cannot be far off… It’s in the 50’s here and raining. Dreary. It’s the kind of day that makes one want to snuggle under the afga...
I HAVE AN APARTMENT!!!!!!!!!!!
I have waited for SO long for this day to arrive~ Freedom! It’s one town over so it won’t be too far if I need Joe to pick up Rx’s or the like. But it’s far enough away that folks won’t just dr...
Just Crazy!
Here we are December 12th and the temperature right now is 63! It’s nuts! I’m not complaining mind you. I just can’t quite wrap my head around it. I just finished my Christmas shopping. Don...
Then it must be Sunday
I’m sitting here crying again. Yup, it’s Sunday & Joe is home. That’ll do iI It’s hard for me to hear what comes out of his mouth. “I’m glad you’re not Christian anymore, because you have a...
Metamorphasis
This cranky old woman is delighted to report that a new leaf has been turned. I’ve spent the last four years moaning and groaning and feeling sorry for myself. I allowed* myself stay in that min...
Broken
Rarely does a night go by that Joe’s not drunk and abusive. No, he does not hit me. He’d like to…I can see it in his eyes, but he doesn ‘t dare. But verbally, he’as abusive as he can be. He te...
Overwhelmed
My brother Gary has Lymphoma and a tumor on his spinal cord. Back in January he was suddenly unable to walk. He’d had a fall a week or so before (unbeknownst to ME of course) but seemed to be al...
Mixed Bags
Good and bad news form here. On the upside, Donna saw the Oncologist this past Friday, and he told her this is a very slow growing Cancer. They’re planning to do a weak version of Chemo to see h...
Tears
I have an Aunt who is four years my senior. She’s more like my sister than my Aunt. We’ve been partners in crime since childhood. She called me yesterday and said “I’ve been diagnosed with Br...
Haloween
Blessed Samhain to those who celebrate. Most of the world sees this as All Saints Day. Being back in Central CT makes me want to take a ride through New Britain tonight. There's a Cenetary I w...
Keepin' On
I am bored out of my mind! Funny thing When I'm working and stressed off my ass, all I want is to be home. But after being here for TWO months with no end in sight, I'm not of that opinion any...
Scared me
I woke up Friday morning coughing up bloody stuff. I called my Homecare nurse....then waited for my PCP to get into the office... Not liking this at all! I figured it was because my Coumadin l...
Holy Shit~
On Sept 17th I went to have a CAT scan and a Pulmonary Function Test. Had the Cat and was in the lab for the PFT when Cat scan called to say do NOT do the test...... When the tech got off the p...
Recovering
've been sick since the 23rd of August... I woke up feeling as if there were a 25 lb rock sitting on my chest. Walking from my bedroom to the bathroom (about 10 feet) left me completely winded. ...
Admissions
It's been a tough week. My COPD has reared it's ugly head and I'm pretty much sidelined until 917/13. I'm not liking it, but I'll deal. I've done a lot of thinking. One of the things I've rea...
Roller Coaster Rides
I'm frustrated. I'll have a good day and think "Ok, here we go, getting there" And the next day I'm back to where I was before. I hate having a body that does nothing but betray me. Phooey on...
Decision Made~
I have begun the process of securing my own apartment. BIG sigh of relief here. BIG. There's a place one town over that looks to be perfect. I'm in the "Hi, I'm interested, when can I come see?...
Down, but far from out
I am out on Disability for a week. Circumstances beyond my conftrol (Thank you SO much Aetna RX Home Delivery) left me without meds, which caused my system to go completely haywire. My COPD too...
Two Faces
I am unhappy this week. I'm on vacation, it should all be grand. But it's not. Joe and I had another fight last night. Caused of course, by my lying grandson. God, I'm so tired of this. ...
Tired of ouchies
The day is bright and beautiful. WHY then is my arthritis acting like it's 20 below and nasty??? God, I'm tired of this... Ok. Rant over. There's nothing I can do about it for now. Pain is ...
The Welcome Wagon
Ok. New format, new attitude. Life in CT is good these days. we seem to have found our balance and things are smoother than before. Will it last? I wish I knew. But for now, peace reigns a...
Book Description
I’ve been an OD member since 2001. I’m still there, but lately it’s begun to feel to me as if it’s in the throes of agonal breathing. Sad. But I suppose that life moves on and all things change. While change is something that can be initially disturbing, it can also turn out to be a good thing in the end.
That’s what I’m betting on here.
My diary is generally about the ups and downs of life as a multi-generation household. Myself, my son, and my grandson & grandaughter. It can be a rollercoaster of emotions for me, and writing helps me deal without doing bodily harm.
