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Welcoming Hayden
It has been a busy couple of months! On October 20, 2014 (3 weeks before my due date) I had an ultrasound that estimated my baby’s weight between 9 and 10 pounds. That, and the fact that my cervi...
Hanging in there
Losing a best friend has made me cherish the friends that I still have so much more. While I will always love K and who she was before her son died, I now recognize how much more I loved her than...
Regrets
As heartbroken as I am to have lost my best friend, I am feeling much better about it now. Relieved, actually. She admitted to having used a small matter argument to do what she has been feeling ...
Loss
As I’ve mentioned several times before, my best friend’s 3 month old baby died in December. Many times I thought that K would pull through it. Certainly not “get over it,” but accept it and attem...
Oh, baby!
It’s official, I’m growing a little boy! We are absolutely elated. We still have no idea what his name is going to be, but I can’t even express the joy I felt when I saw his little boy parts on t...
Angels
About three weeks ago, an old friend of mine and his wife welcomed their preterm baby into the world and got to spend 20 minutes with her before she passed away. Yesterday a good friend of mine w...
Bitter
I have some of the most wonderful childhood memories, many of them including my mother’s side of the family who we no longer feel close to. My mom only has one sister. She has two daughters, our ...
Anxious
I can without a doubt feel the baby moving around in my belly now…it’s such an amazing feeling. It also made me realize that I’m still terrified to be excited. A thousand “what ifs” run through m...
Shaken
I have changed so much over the past two years of my life. While most of the changes within myself are positive, there are parts of me that are more lost than ever. Since W died in December, my f...
Different
For years and years I was on opendiary, and their site recently shut down taking all of my entries with it. At first I was a little devastated, but I’ve recently come to the realization that perh...
Book Description
For years and years I was an Open Diary member, and when the site shut down all of my entries went with it. At first I was a little devastated, but I’ve recently come to the realization that perhaps it was time for me to move on anyway. I am an entirely different person than I was then, and I know that I will never be that person again. In many ways that’s a wonderful thing. While some of those feelings and memories have not completely faded, I can honestly say that I am a happy person now.
My life is by no means impressive, or particularly exciting…but I love it just the same.
