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Entries. They are so hard to get out lately. I suppose it has a lot to do with the fact that my dumb laptop is still broken—despite the fact that I bought a new reboot disk AND took it into th...

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I don’t really understand how when I start out a conversation with such good intentions, all hell breaks loose. I guess it’s just that I’ve never been able to verbalize the things that swirl in...

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An entry’s coming…I’ve been enjoying….(for the most part): And now, back to reality.

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I keep fucking up this relationship. I don’t get it. I love this man. Am I sabotaging? A few examples: I am so, so, sooooo ashamed, but I get kinda resentful of the kids and the ex and the ...

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Yeah, so we went on a cruise and had the best time ever–In fact, it was the best vacation I’ve ever taken in my life. It was everything I’ve ever dreamed of: romance, nudity on the balcony, se...

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Wellllll…..I’ll write about the fantastic weekend we had in a non-favorites only entry. For now, what I have is an update to last entry… The Session: It was a toughie. First of all, I was a ...

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I slept on the couch last night because you were so mad at me. I told you before that I never wanted to go to bed like that, and you told me if I ever felt that way we should talk it through…an...

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Dammit. The more I think about it, the angrier I get. And therapy in t-minus 1 hour. Hopefully, the bomb will be defused. At least we’re talking. Oh yeah, and his ex-wife gets remarried tom...

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THIS is what’s gotten me all shaken up lately: I adore dimples…and that glow! (heh) My new running kicks are totally photo-worthy! BIG KISS!!

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Hi. I’m going to attempt to get an entry in while I do the following here at the office: Create my own end-of-year review (called an “Individual Development Plan” and done on some kind of onl...

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An entry. My gosh, why is it so hard to write an entry these days? I guess because my laptop at home is still broken, and even if it were working, I’m sure I wouldn’t be writing from home anyw...

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Things are quite amazing with Grrrr…I’m almost afraid to write that for fear of the jinx. But it’s so crazy how crazy in love I am. And now I see him looking at me with those eyes again. The ...

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Grrrr and I had our consultation with the couples counselor last night. We were supposed to meet at 6:45 to fill out some paperwork and then have an hour-long session with the therapist. Grrrr...

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Mother was a professional model. He’s still finding photos of her here and there in various publications Mother passed away when Grrrr was 10 years old (she knew she was going to die—she had ...

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A couple of weeks ago, Grrrr and I attended a benefit for a woman who lives in our building (um, yeah…I just wrote “our”—wow!). This woman is dying of cancer and her bills have all stacked up, ...

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Ate a whole bunch of crap today. Threw it all up. I’m surprised I’m writing this, but I’m marking it private so that nobody can read this but me. Possibly more on this later. Possibly not. ...

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Thirty-nine. I’m happy today. Life’s not perfect. I’m FAARRR from perfect. My new beau’s not perfect. But perfection is boring and leaves nothing for struggle. After years and years and ye...

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Another weekend come and gone. Another incident with Grrr. This time, during our “morning after” talk, I broached the subject of counseling. He was very open to the suggestion, though he did...

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Relationship Status: So Grrrr and I talked. Quite a bit, actually. And I didn’t think it was necessary at the time to bring up something like counseling—just yet. Because, quite frankly, dee...

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Haven’t written. Haven’t noted. I’m sorry. I’m just…hooo boy, where do I even start? I wanted to start out with what’s been going on: the events, the parties, the fair, the fun! But somethi...

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Went to Jen’s wedding back in the Great Midwest over the weekend. Grrrr went with. I have to say it was probably the most beautiful wedding I’ve ever attended. Even Grrrr said the same thing....

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As I begin to calm down ever so slightly in this relationship, Grrr seems to have started to ratchet his insecurities (or whatever they are). He’s getting really sensitive to things like my int...

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Must figure out a way to snap out of this. I’m having a terrible time, and I don’t know what to do. I’m confused half the time, giddy 1/4th of the time, and nauseous the rest of the time. Som...

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I am so grateful for the notes (though CN, the phone call the night before was the equivalent of throwing myself on the floor!). Of course, I was unable to wait for the consensus. Not that I w...

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I know you know NONE of the facts/issues here, but I’m in dire straights…I’m still overseas (now in London), and I fucked up last night and kinda drunk dialed Grrrrr and acted like an insecure i...

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