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Today I’m grateful for: Scrounging the CUTEST outfit from the depths of my closet: minty blue print dress…clingy and cut on the bias worn under a cropped mint blue ballerina sweater (somehow ...

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….thank them??? My parents (well, my dad) called and emailed ALL of the vendors for the wedding today and undid (almost) everything that we had in the works. I just did NOT have it in me to do...

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Today I’m grateful for: My Papa REALLY helping out my heart by calling all the wedding vendors for me and canceling/informing all parties involved (see previous entry for deets) The therapi...

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Every morning I wake up, hoping this has all been a bad dream. No such luck this morning. I’m still so shocked that the EXMF is “ready to start and looking for a serious relationship”. How on...

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Better do my grateful list for today: Getting out of bed this morning. Having an amazingly understanding boss who talked to me for quite a while about stuff today. Eating something today...

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Are you kidding me? I had a sneaking suspicion, and I was right. It took less than 24 hours for EXMS to put a profile up on Match.com. It’s nauseating and it hurts so much to think that he ...

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I have had breakups before, but never like this. In the past, I’d seen signs. In fact, I always knew for sure what was coming, so I either braced myself or I softened the blow. Neither party w...

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I know, you’re going to be so sick of me until I get myself out of this. I took a drive today to get something to drink. I turned on the radio to NPR because I wanted NO part of any music. Bu...

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Early last evening I went to a “thing” that someone told me about. It was an event that I was told I wouldn’t want to miss. It was at the convention center, which is walking distance and halfw...

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I’m sorry. I don’t really want to have pity parties here, but I need to get this out and I figure this is as good a place as any. I could make these entries private, and I don’t know why I’m p...

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I am not strong.

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Again, I can’t tell you how much your notes of encouragement mean to me. I have to give a special shout-out to someone who took time out of their holiday on Monday to text me back off the ledge...

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OK. Deep breaths. I started writing the whole thing out. What happened. The events leading up to EXMS leaving me at a party in a city that’s a 4 hour drive away from home, moving out of ou...

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I got a private note from someone who asked me what I meant in my last entry by “conditional vs. unconditional” love and that shouldn’t two people love each other conditionally anyway? For exam...

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Suppose I should update while I wait for Best Bud to get here. She’s coming to town with her honey and their baby, but since I only have one bed now, honey and baby will spend the night at anot...

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I started this yesterday… Scorpio (October 23 – November 21) Your fears may be running rampant as the Moon grows full in your sign. Unfortunately, you may not have a say in the timing. Certai...

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You have NO idea how comforting your notes are. Seriously. I don’t know what I would do without OD. RL friends are being absolutely soothing and supportive, too. And of course, Mom and Dad a...

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At my parents’ place in the boonies, and wireless connection is iffy, so I don’t know if I’ll be able to post, but here goes… Working on polishing off a bottle of wine and a box of Milk Duds. ...

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Talks not going well, and it feels like the world is falling apart. I seriously cannot BELIEVE this. I am on my hands and knees. I am a blathering idiot. Won’t someone PLEASE stop me????

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(not the “Ginger” kind). I think the wedding hubub has freaked out TFMS. He snapped. We are calling it off. Postponing? I don’t know yet. *I’m panicking.*

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My God. I don’t even know what to say right now. It’s not a death–but close. I can’t believe this.

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Is that you, Anonynoter? My ex-boyfriend? It sure sounds like it. Remember when you left me those notes years ago? Heh. Last night, TFMS and I had our 3rd premarital counseling session wit...

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*Photo credit to TFMS, who takes the ultimate “long-arm” shots!

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Today is Hans’s (TFMS’s son) birthday. It’s actually his GOLDEN BIRTHDAY (turning 8 on May 8th). Last night, TFMS and I both came home from business trips. We ate a little snack and then go...

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Yesterday marked 1-year engagement anniversary. Got in a dumb tiff (not surprised, it’d been well over 2 weeks…we were due). Felt super sexy yesterday…must’ve oozed from my pores. Sex appeal...

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