I’m not sure how safe this app is, but I’m choosing to be vulnerable in it. I guess that sentence right there says a lot simultaneously. I wish I could stop judging myself so harshly.

I just got out of a relationship that ended on the first day it started in December. For starters my intentions were all wrong when we started hooking up. Prior to that I hadn’t had a relationship in 3 years and haven’t had intimacy as well. I was lonely and tired of being alone.

I wanted something quick and that was exactly what I got. We landed friends with benefits for awhile, it’s quite funny I choose someone who I thought I wouldn’t have interest in and then ended up developing feelings while I was in it. Maybe it’s just my body senses that were going off.

At this point in my life I hit a low, my priorities weren’t straight. I didn’t even like how I was being treated but I still stayed. I felt like everyday is just me getting by in life. I’ll admit I am still at a low currently but I picked myself up a bit and added standards that I dropped in the name of loneliness and intimacy. I hope that this writing teaches and reminds people of valuable lessons that should not be dismissed and that this could hold space for others who resonate. This is something most would not speak about online so thank you for allowing me to hold the space to.