And So I Am Sad in Poetry

I am sad...
That you don't see yourself the way that I see you
I am sad...
That my words and deeds will never be enough to help you see 
That the things you say and the things you do redefine what beauty means to me 
I am sad...
The jokes you tell to cover up the insecurities cut so close to the truth 
But it's not my truth, it will never be mine
Cuz I've told you once, if not a thousand times 
The ways in which you have changed my life
I replay the things you say in my head for days and days, thinking and smiling over your unrealized brilliance or insight or whatever you want to call it
And it's beautiful in ways my words just can't reach
But I try because I want you to see
Yeah I want you to see that when I look into your eyes, I need a second to look away... Cuz the butterflies in my stomach overtake and overwhelm
And so I am sad...
Because you keep it a secret 
And so I am sad...
Because no matter what I say, it will never be enough