05/10/2021 in My Therapy Book

I am not even sure what to write about today. I read one of the most heart wrenching posts here that I have ever read and it brought me to tears. It was the first real insight I had into the pain my daughter is experiencing. Reading it sounded like they could be twins, in everything from age to life experiences. It just rip my heart apart reading her entries.
20 years ago today I lost my mother after a very long battle with cancer. It is always a very hard day for me. I don’t know why but it was harder than loosing my father. The idea that she is no longer around, even after all this time is hard. I never dealt with the loss then and still have not fully dealt with it. I just trudge along and wait for the feelings to go away. Not healthy I am sure but it has gotten me through this long.