I don't want kid's anymore in Journal

For the longest time, I wanted children, and I seriously do love them, but today I babysat in what felt like forever, and I hated it! My nephew and my brothers little cousin was TOO MUCH to handle. I mean maybe my children could be different, but do I really want to take that chance? I don’t feel like I have the patience anymore. I did before it seems but I really feel that parents are too soft on their children. They don’t discipline them. Maybe I expect too much. Maybe I was better a few months ago. Maybe I was stupid. I guess I have changed. I have no energy and if this is what I would have to deal with as a parent, I am not sure I would enjoy it nor ever be happy. It hurt’s to say. but I never want my kid to be disrespectful and not listen to me. I never want my kid to think it is okay to put their hands on an adult or try to intimidate them. This society Is SO SICK. This society is trying to teach us that this behavior is okay and that real discipline is abuse. Even time-out is being labeled as abuse. I do want children, but NOT if they would be as mean, and spoiled as children of today. I was not the best kid, so I can’t judge, but it seems to only get worse by generation. It is not even the child’s fault either. It is the parent’s who are setting their children up for failure.