Anger in My Thoughts
- March 12, 2014, 2:18 p.m.
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I have an anger issue. Not one where I strike out and hit people and break things. I should be so lucky, I let it build up inside me to a point where I feel like I am going to burst and even talking to people I like pisses me off. The real problem is that on some days, like today, I don't even know what sets it off.
Today started simple enough but by the time I was at work for only a half an hour I was already at that point. I am looking at kids who are out of uniform and thinking WHY THE HELL do I seem to be the only person in the entire institution who seems to care. Logically I know I am not the only one but that is what is rushing through my head anyway.
It bothers me and wears me down. I get depressed with not being able to control how I am feeling and end up doing things that drive me deeper into depression. I hate food some days. I swear I don't understand why it is I seem to fall off track so quickly and so heavily. One cookie is not enough to sooth me, I need an entire box of Thins Mints (I hate Girl Scouts also). I wish I could control myself and my feelings better.
Thank goodness for 3rd grade. They were the one shining light in this day, getting to see them and work with them really brought me up and was the only thing that made me smile today. I love that group, they always seem to be able to bring out the happy side of me.
I stopped and looked back at what I have written (this being only my second entry) and wonder how I managed to get through college with these writing skills. Please don't judge me based on my prose.
Deleted user ⋅ March 12, 2014