Seriously. Never underappreciate your support network. When you’re drowning, they will drag your head back above water. They may not be able to dry up the sea, but they can help you navigate it.
I told my bestie JB everything that’s going on. Her first response was ‘I support you 100%’ followed by ‘I know this is a difficult decision for you.’ She’s a blonde pony-tailed miracle.
Today I messaged a friend I don’t talk with terribly often, mainly because of how far away she lives. But when I messaged her to talk, she rang me twice on fb messenger within minutes. She was a foster child herself, and I thought she might have some insight in everything. She completely agreed with everything we’ve decided. She met J a couple months ago, and even then she could see that things were pretty uncomfortable for us. She said we need to take care of ourselves and Nathan, and not keep J here at the expense of our sanity. It wouldn’t be fair or healthy for anybody involved. She also agrees that our caseworkers are being jackasses about everything going on, for us and for J. The whole thing made me feel a lot better about it all, considering she’s been on the other side and she knows what it’s like. She knows that J will blame himself, no matter what we say, and we’ll always wonder if we did enough or could have done more or tried harder to make it work. Monday won’t be easy.. but maybe I’m a little more prepared for it. I want to make this a good weekend for everyone.