You Know I'm No Good in Every day scata

5/19/19
4:17 pm

Another day where I feel angry, anxious and easily annoyed. I don’t know why this is happening.

Yes, I’m taking my meds.

I had my schedule all planned out for today. Schiller street needed me to turnover a room, and Daycare was having family over so they asked if I could come late today. And I have the Bull on the schedule. So I was going to hit Schiller, then the Bull, then the Daycare. It would have worked perfectly, right?

Got a text from R at the Bull. The guests wanted to leave late, at 4 pm. I didn’t want to go to the Daycare until 3 just in case the family stayed later than planned, and I was already done at Schiller street (went there at 11 am, didn’t take long to clean). So I told R that I may or may not do the Bull today, that I might wait until tomorrow.

When I went to leave Schiller, they were pulling all the fire trucks out of the building. I figured they were just moving them or whatever. One of them backed up and blocked me in, and just fucking sat there. The parade. The fucking parade today.

So I sat in the Blazer, waiting and waiting. When they finally moved, I got out of my parking space, but, one entry to the street is completely closed off because of Maifest. I could only go in the direction of the damn parade.

So I shut the Blazer off and sat in the middle of the street, waiting for the parade to go by. At least while I was in the street, I was shaded. It was feckin’ hot in the parking lot.

While I was waiting, I sent Daycare a text asking if I could come as soon as I got through the parade mess, and she said sure.

I get there and start cleaning the kitchen. The power goes out. The daycare is in the basement and there is only that tiny basement window for light. ::sigh:: So I cleaned in the dark. The power came on and I rushed to vacuum in case it went back off. It did. Then popped back on, then off, then on. Grrr

Because I was already angry and anxious, I sent R a text telling him that the power kept blinking off and on and I would do the Bull tomorrow. I was just done. I didn’t want to go there and start the wash only to have the power go out.

I would rather have a long day today instead of tomorrow. Not that it matters. ::sigh::

I think I’m going to go cook something. Futzing around in the kitchen might make me feel better.

See ya.