I almost left yesterday and now I regret it. I’m so afraid of what may happen. He said he wished I had gone cause he was thinking that he could finally focus on himself. If I wouldve known that, I may have left.
Why didnt I leave? I was so close, but my feet just wouldnt move. He was pushing me to leave, but then he said the words “fine, then stay”. I’m so stupid and weak. I gave in. I know he doesnt want me to really leave, and that’s why it’s so hard. I probably should because this isnt going to get better. I’m making him miserable and I myself am.. Idk why I cant just be those strong women who say “fuck you” and leave.
Its just not working and who am I kidding?Myself? I even know we’re just prolonging the inevitable by now.
Last updated April 10, 2019