On my big fat backside.
Last night I started randomly craving a burger like CRAZZZZYYYYY. Like I wanted a HUGE FAT JUICY GREASY BURGER and would have possibly sold some organs on the black market for one. But I had already eaten my calories/macros for the day and it was in perfect balance. But man, I couldn’t get my mind off of it. So I was like… whatever, I’m just going to go get one. I’ve been super low carb, low calorie, and losing 2 lbs a day. If my body/mind wants a burger this bad, then I’m going to go get a burger. I drove to Culver’s at 9pm and got a Wisconsin Double melt, fries and ranch to dip them in. This morning I was 0.2 lb heavier which I’m sure is from all the salt. I bet I’ll see another loss tomorrow.
Work is going smooth today. I got lucky. Thank God!
My mother-in-law is on her way here. She’s flying in. She is currently on her layover. I hope she gets here in time for my son’s honors choir performance. He’s been at the school all day on a Saturday. I’m glad he enjoys these special activities. Only about 7 kids from his school was selected to perform.
I get so much flack from other T1D moms about not doing enough for my kid. Like I make sure he’s healthy and goes to the dr and in good control but I mean like.... They do EVERYTHING for their kid from meal planning, checking their blood 5-8 times a day, giving all their shots, bolusing with the pump, going to get their low treatments (juice, candy etc). I do none of this for my child to be honest. I change his pump… and require him to text me his BS when he’s away without a school nurse (like today), when he SWAGs (scientific wild ass guess) for carb counts - that means he looks at his food and guesses how many carbs bc it doesn’t have a label, and I want to know his sugar before bed. Some of these moms still get up and check their kids blood sugar at 2 and 4 am ever night. No thanks. Totally unnecessary for us.
I’m glad he’s independent because now he can go to the school for 8 hours without a parent or nurse and I know he’s got it. They did make me feel guilty on the mom group. They said he would have burnout sooner than other kids. I felt bad and asked my kid if he wants me to do more for him. He’s like “No… why?” I told him I could check his blood, etc. He’s like… ummm. No. He does want me to tuck him in every night though :)
Today for lunch I had a can of chicken with crack seasoning and hot sauce… and a salad… shredded lettuce, spicy pico de gallo, and an ounce of queso fresco. I have no idea what we are doing for dinner tonight as my MIL sometimes takes us out to eat. I did ask my husband to find out from her if I should make something.
Who knows. I’m not going to stress about it. If nothing else I will order Little Ceasars or go get a rotisserie chicken and some sides… or some BBQ. Whatev!