Christmas Eve was good
Christmas was good
Met a new boy, Jacob… a few times.
Have plans with Timmy for Saturday.
Officially blocked and deleted Shawn from my life and made him promise to do the same to me so neither of us can reach out.
Have tentative date with new guy, Andy.
Interview place never got back to me even after I reached out again so no interview.
I’m averaging 3-4 hours of sleep a night.
I feel like things are so weird at the moment. Such a mess.
The loss of Shawn in my life is what I NEED but it’s hard to deal with. I’m in a fog.
I’m happy to see Timmy but I shouldn’t even because I’m just giving myself false hope. I’ve really missed him lately and meeting Jacob made me even more sad about the situation.
Jacob is just looking for hookups (but he’s sooo cute) lol
And Andy is.... just a super nice guy.
I should focus more of my attention on him.
I have bff night out plans tomorrow. Timmy night Saturday.
And no nye plans even though I just went out and bought over $100 for food to make.
Maybe I’ll gave a giant feast myself!
I will write in more detail later when i have more patience or more than my phone.
I hope you all had a great Christmas and a beautiful welcoming of the new year.