he showed up at my door tonight. i wasn’t expecting it. my world both came together and split apart in the course of a few short hours.
he left an hour ago and i have been crying.... sobbing.... wailing ever since. i woke my neighbor up, i drank myself into a stupor, and now i can’t keep my eyes open long enough to talk about what really happened. it’s all i can do to type this.
so i am going to curl up under the blankets alone, all cried out, miserable, desolate, hopeless, missing him, wishing he were here… knowing he’s with someone else… this is my life.