gonna be taking a break from alot of things.. probably here too. sorry.. if i don’t get back to you it’s not you. right now things just really fucking suck..
i just kind of give up on things. i think the best thing for me right now is to just push myself away from the world. build up my own little wall and go away from everyone. i think it’s really gonna be along time if at all that i come back and actually talk to people again.
alot of it is just me. im agoraphobic, anti social for a reason. i just don’t belong with people. i don’t belong in the world. im suited for being alone. it’s what i honestly deserve. everything i do is wrong. i fuck up constantly and nothing seems to make it better.
i honestly feel more broken then i’ve ever felt in my life. i really do. and im not doing this for attention. or pity. don’t. please don’t. i’ve met a few awesome people on here. really kind. but i don’t belong out in the world. i don’t deserve to find someone special. i really don’t deserve much of anything at all. im crying. im tired. im just exausted beyond anything i’ve ever felt. i think i’ve finally had that break down that’s been waiting to happen..
Last updated July 11, 2018