God, I miss being in shape..
I felt like doing crunches, so I did.. 20. Haha! Terrible! I worked myself up to 100/day at one point and then I was starting to actually get ALL THE WAY UP a few times before I quit.
I used to look so good when I was 24/25, and then relationships ruined it all. Hahah! Since then I just gained and gained and I know its because I’m not active enough. I need to start pushing myself to get out the door and do it… Or just run in place.
Maybe I can try after this entry… It’d be great if I could get moving and build up a sweat. Theres an option on this Zombie 5k app that counts steps so maybe if I just walk in place it may still pick up. I might not have to go anywhere. I may have to try it.
I just felt better when I was in shape too. Mentally, emotionally. I felt happy. I always feel so blah and ugh. I don’t care what any of these proud to be big people say, when you’re fit, your overall morale is high. Ever since I gained weight, in just miserable. The thing is is I’m not even that heavy.. But I’m smaller framed so it doesnt look right for me to have much weight. It all sits awkwardly in my middle… I don’t gain much in my arms and nothing in my legs or butt… I’m all boobs and stomach and I hate that! How do other women get to still have that womanly shape and I just look like a potato.. I hate it. I never see anyone else who looks like my body type.. Probably cause they’re thin. My body is supposed to be lean. I have like no hips.. But I guess I was blessed with boobs no matter what. Shit I could be size 0 and still sport C cups. But anyway, I need to try.. I mean at least to 150… For now.. To lose 10-15lbs would be great! At least I would be on a healthier level.
I need to start doing cardio.. Not just to lose weight but to strengthen my heart too. I mentioned getting a jump rope. I have to try to remember that.. It’ll probably be more fun than just jogging in place or whatever. I gotta try..
Anyway, I’m gonna see if that Zombie5k step counter works..