My crazy world in Day to day life from a woman that turned 60 in Oct 2014 and who lives on a farm and Retired on January 2, 2016. I plan to do more sewing, work outside in the yard and just enjoy my retirement.

My world is very small sometimes. Too small I wonder, but it is mine and my life so I will continue putting one foot in front of the other and move forward. I am not very realist I suppose as I thought/hoped that with the 2 youngest grands vacationing with their mom, my life here would be so calm and quiet. LOL LOL LOL LOL Insanity is so very very close.

Dad’s dementia is apparent now and in my mind, at least, their is no question that he is in it, has it, or whatever you call it when you’re losing your parent, but they’re still here. He calls me sometimes 3, 4, 5 times a day. He forgets we just talked. He doesn’t remember the answers I’ve given him to his questions. He tells me he had a 6ft snake on his bed, on the floor, and they locked eyes. He told the staff and they told him they had caught it but he knows they are lying and it’s still there somewhere.
He told me this morning on the 1st call (have had 3 so far and it’s not 1230 yet) that he lost his gloves. I asked, what gloves, he said his work gloves. I said I didn’t know you had any work gloves there. Yes, he said, we do work all the time and I need my gloves. Just how do you answer that question? I just say yes.

Rayray called Dude yesterday evening and talked to him for about 15 minutes or so. He sounds a bit animated to me when he’s talking to the kids on the phone. A little “too” happy of sorts. He wants them to have a good time on vaca with their mom and the rest of them, but I can tell, it also breaks his heart a little. He is terrified that will choose her over him and not want to be with him if they have a better time with her. I do not see that happening and I’ve told him that, but it is still a fear and that fear grows during times like this. It will not be vaca time all the time, but I do believe they will get more “stuff” with her than him.

I told him this morning that since he continues to get phone calls about her not making payments on her car and on a loan where she and boyfriend bought a new bed, that she may not be paying her lawyer either. If that is the case, the divorce process will cease, until she pays her lawyer. The upside (cause you just must find an upside) is that he will continue to have health insurance under her coverage.

Things (money) are not going good for the Workshop and it is serious. I’ve made calls to try and get information that can save the Workshop from being closed. Prayers would be appreciated.

Jacob’s foot is swollen and am waiting for the specialist’s office to call with an appointment for him. Again, Prayers requested.

I feel so old and tired and a tad defeated. Prayers appreciated. I see my cardiologist Tuesday.

We finally received rain yesterday and the ground soaked it up quickly. Good thing too, cause it poured. More in the forecast for the rest of the week and we need it badly. The green beans, tomatoes, corn, green peppers, and cucumbers look like they grew overnight and probably did. Finally the watermelon seeds have appeared and Rayray may get to harvest a watermelon. They will be small and I’ve got two big tubs to transplant them into when the time is right. Will wait until this weeks storms are over to put them in their own tubs and hope they grow wonderful sweet melons!

Must march on and try to get some inside things accomplished. Take care and God Bless