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- March 13, 2018, 9:37 p.m.
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The Japanese House
1:30 pm
I overslept by like, 4 hours today. Thank gawd Pam woke me up. I got really weird last night… had a hard time typing and stuff like that.
And no, I wasn’t drinking. Well, coffee. But still.
And I’ve been getting very forgetful. Pam says it’s stress, but jeez I’m worried. I’m on freakin’ adderall for gawds sake. I should not be having this issue.
I know I’ve never owned a company before, I know I’m totally stressed out. I know I have way too many thoughts going round and round my head. AND of course put the fibro fog in there…
But I am still worried.
I have an appt with the PCP on Friday, so hopefully I’ll remember. I’d write it down now, but I’ll forget it. hm Maybe I’ll put it in my wallet. lol then I’ll forget it’s in my wallet.
Ok sticky note on my credit card, and I wrote it in the notebook I never look at.
After this cuppa coffee I have to get off my ass and get a cabinet cleaned out that is in the garage.
Damn. That cup didn’t last very long.
3:03 pm
Threw away a lot of junk out of the cabinet in the garage, started a bag for Goodwill, and put the stuff in that I got today inside. I should have another shipment today or tomorrow. lol I won’t be running out of anything soon.
I do have to get a few more things at either the Dollar Store or Dollar General (like toilet brushes) But then I’ll be set.
I finished my hours at the Alpenhorn today. Made myself work a little slow so I didn’t have to do laundry to hit my two hour mark. Gads I hate laundry. And OCD man is so.... OCD about how things are folded. lol seriously all I know how to fold are the towels, hand cloths, and face cloths. I don’t even want to try to fold a sheet. And I hate the way they are folded. They’re hard to unfold because of it. Meh.
OCD man’s wife seems depressed to me. I gave her a couple of crystals that I had set to the side on my altar. Just felt like I had to do it. The cook said (I may be repeating myself) that she is “done” dealing with the B&B. I can’t blame her. It’s a lot of work, and the way they run the place, it’s even harder.
I could have sworn I had another bag of worry dolls somewhere. hmph can’t find them. She could use them, y’know? And I know she doesn’t think I sound silly. She’s the one who gives “gong baths”
Eh. I need more coffee.
4:32 pm
Speaking of depressed, my depression hit me like a ton of bricks for no reason just a while ago. I’m lonely, no one to talk to. So fucking much on my mind and no I can’t breathe. I can’t relax. I just can’t do anything.
::Inhales:: ::cries::
I got a card in the mail from my cousin with pictures of my aunt in it. I’m going to be scanning them and sending them back. Everyone always said I look like her, and Yeah, you can tell we’re related. They also say I act “just” like her. And I seriously take that as a compliment. Even though I was young when she passed away, she was always my favorite aunt.
Of course, looking at the pictures didn’t help make me feel less depressed. They made me miss my family something fierce. Every one of them. I miss them.
See ya.
Sister ⋅ March 15, 2018