I’M GETTING PAID TODAY.
My account will be in the positives again. My bills will get paid. I can get food. And gas. AND TOILET PAPER. Hahaha. I totally ran out last night. I thought I had more but didn’t. Ugh. Being poor sucks. Well..... not getting paid by your employer resulting in you being poor sucks.
I was talking to Shawn yesterday and was telling him I was just itching to spend money. When I get sad about things, I just want to go shopping. He told me not to. I think I might listen to him.... somewhat. I need a boy in my life that can control my urges to spend money on stuff I don’t need so I actually really liked him trying to talk me out of it.
The thing is.... I probably won’t listen. I do really NEED some of this stuff. My bedroom is about 80% painted so once I finish that… I’ll need new bedding and new decor ;)
I also need paint for my dresser.
SO it’s legit things.
Also, I decided I’m buying him a beard grooming kit. He decided he’s not going to shave all year. He has quite a beard already so… it’s going to be huge. I’m not sure how I feel about this. I like what he has now. I don’t know what he’ll look like in a year. But he’ll need a grooming kit. If he’s doing this then he has to do it right.
I also really want to make my step dad some treats. He came over yesterday and fixed my leaking toilet. I don’t know what to make him though. I’ve been in such a baking mood lately. Which is why Shawn rocks because he loves treats. I can bake him some too. But.... he’s mentioned he wants to lose weight (hasn’t started anything) so I don’t want to be a bad influence. Actually was hoping he’d join me at my gym. He’s a big boy so I thought it’d be fun to do this together.
He didn’t seem very keen on the gym idea though - even though it’d be free for him. I get a +1.
He has his knee issues so that’s understandable.
He told me his end goal and asked me mine. I don’t have a number goal.
“I just want to be hot” is my end goal. He just laughed. You know what’s weird though… I don’t think Shawn really likes skinny girls. I’m pretty sure his ex was chubs. His dating site profile said he was looking for a “curvy” girl. He makes stupid heart eye emojis / drooling emojis if I ever mention my body/showering/being naked. I do think if I continued to lose weight… I’ll never be curvy. I don’t have much of an ass as is. My boobs are small. Just no curves. Shawn might be disappointed but.. ohhhhhh well. Health/happiness comes before his love of curves ;)
Shawn’s dating site profile also said a “curvy COUNTRY girl”
He told me the only thing he doesn’t like about me is that I’m “city”
CITY, guys. He called me CITY. I live in a damn city of like 100k. What kind of city does that make me? Lol. Maybe I’m not out back in acres of land wearing camo and four wheelin’ but I wouldn’t call myself “city”. I mean… I’m definitely not country though. He also called me a “princess type” which I did totally take offense over. He took it back and said I’m really not. All because I said my step dad would replace an ENTIRE LIGHT FIXTURE for me because I don’t know how.
I invited him to my family cabin trip in July. He said he’d love to go.. if he gets approved to take the time off work. My goal was to show him how “not city” I am. I can go hiking. I can go fishing. Maybe. Just give me lots of bug spray and tick repellent. And don’t make me touch worms or the actual fish. You know… show him how not city I am. ;P
We were talking about camping and I said I’d totally go. He said, “You definitely don’t seem like the camping type”. Jesus. I don’t mind camping. I mean...... it’s not my FAVORITE thing but I’d totally do it. This boy has a lot of learn about me.
This definitely turned into a Shawn entry. I didn’t mean for that to happen.
Anyway. YAY FRIDAY.
We’ve been working on year end stuff at work and we found like 3 mistakes I made and I’m not good at mistakes. I feel really guilty and sad about it. I mean. Boss lady said it happens and it’s totally fine BUT STILL. I don’t like it. I told her I don’t want to work on this stuff anymore next year. Haha. I’m excited for the weekend though. No more numbers for two days at least.
Shawn made plans with his friends on Saturday which… fine. Cool. Go be your friends on the only night you’re available. But he also made plans with them next weekend. I don’t know what day but that’s my birthday weekend and he knows it so if he doesn’t make SOME time for me, I’m going to be kind of pissed. Lol. I don’t really ask a lot of Shawn. I always encourage friend time and stuff. I don’t ask for a lot of his time… but I did tell him I better see him that weekend. Guess we’ll seeeeeeeeee. My birthdays usually disappoint so I’m not really expecting anything more than that.
BUT the following Friday I’m going to a wine night pottery painting with some friends/fam. I love pottery painting. I love wine. I love drinking. I love going out. So I’m super excited about that night. Hopefully that will be fun.