today in Cookies and Chaos 2025

It’s gotten to the point where I can’t walk. I mean, I can, but I need a walker. And even with that, I have to keep sitting down.

Sadly a walker doesn’t help going up and down stairs, or take a shower.

I have a multitude of calls in for shower chairs, appointments, anything and everything that might help.

pain meds do nothing.

I have no help at home. and fuck you if you think that Pam helps me at all. oh she will cook, but I have to walk up the stairs to get it.

I cannot clean my space, even do my dishes. when I don’t get food cooked from Pam, I eat a lot of ramen. A LOT OF RAMEN.

when she does cook, she cooks food I can’t chew because I have no teeth.

she expects me to keep working but the only client I have left is the daycare and I don’t know how I can even to that tomorrow seeing I cannot walk today. If I bring anything like that up, I get ” who else would let you live rent free?” so I keep working.

I’m still dog sitting but that’s pretty hard when you can’t .... walk.

my family told me to go fuck myself.

no literally they told me to go fuck myself.

I have no friends, not locally.

I’m soon to be out on the streets.

Or .. just dead. becasue… I can’t deal with this pain .

See ya