was i not interesting enough? in addressing the public

i did love him
in my way
it hurts differently than a romance gone by

slowly distance expands and years extend
we grow in life, but asymptotically farther
from when we were known to one another

and what would he say now,
if i revealed: “I was proud to know you.”
i felt cooler by just the thought of it
but out of sheer self-preservation i can’t bring myself to stand on the cliff

and i find myself still questioning
was i not interesting enough?

or is it that i made his voice catch
and we crossed a line

friendship lost