Regret in 2025

  • Jan. 29, 2025, 6:35 p.m.
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The Bactrim seems to be kicking this UTI out once and for all. I noticed a difference after just three doses—that’s about how many it usually takes for me to start feeling improvement. There are fewer leukocytes in my pee as well.

I asked Tom if he thought I should cancel the urologist, but he had a point when he said I should still go to find out why I keep getting these. More than likely, though, there’s nothing wrong with me and it’s just a menopause thing. I talked to Jessie earlier, and she said she has the same problem. They gave her medicine when she was in Saint Lucia.

She said her allergies are driving her crazy too, and she’s been trying different medicines. Mine are interfering with my sleep and leaving me exhausted. These sprays are making little to no difference, and the antihistamine spray leaves me tired the next day.

The whole purpose of wanting to sign up on the ENT patient portal was so I could ask the doctor questions, but when I went to the messaging section, his name didn’t come up. That really frustrates me because I’d love to know what I could try next. I can’t see him until March 5th. What am I supposed to do in the meantime? I hate having to go through others with questions, but I may have to call the office and hope whoever I talk to can relay the message and get back to me with his response.

I’m so fucking exhausted and can barely think straight. I canceled my virtual interview with Doctronic. Besides, I haven’t used their website enough to really judge it.

We both believe at this point that the bulk of my problem is allergies, not the nasal valve. I was freaking out about the “what ifs” yesterday. What if we can’t get my allergies under control and it interferes with the effectiveness of a CPAP? Even with air pushing through my nose, if the passages are swollen due to allergies, I still won’t get enough air. I feel really overwhelmed right now, thinking about everything I might have to deal with and all that could go wrong—or just not get better. I still truly fear that I’m not meant to sleep no matter what I do. It’s like something wants me to go through life in an exhausted fog, unable to do nearly as much as I’d like. Even if we had the money right now, how am I supposed to move like this?

But yeah, for the first time since coming here, I totally regret moving to Florida. This climate is all wrong for me, even though I love the warmer weather. I’d miss having temperatures in the 70s in January, but I’d rather bitch about the cold and dry skin that dry climates bring than deal with breathing issues fucking with my sleep.

Another thing that freaked me out is that, while I’ve heard good things about allergy shots and they may recommend them just to be able to breathe in this state, for the first few months, you have to go in for shots anywhere from one to three times a week. How the hell am I gonna do that with N24???
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