Still Symptomatic in 2025
- Jan. 21, 2025, 3:53 a.m.
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I slept worse than the night before, yet somehow I have a little more energy today. Go figure. At least in the midst of snoring and dreaming about receiving threats in the mail from who knows who, I managed to have some fun dreams. Yeah, Alyssa’s back. I love it when she shows up in my dreams. The first one wasn’t great because we were arguing, though I can’t remember what it was about. The second dream was definitely more interesting. I was wearing a royal blue string bikini. These days I definitely wouldn’t wear a bikini, and I prefer pink or purple. Nonetheless, she reached behind me and yanked the tied string of my top, desperate to take me in all the right ways. When my top was off and flung to the side, she grabbed the strings of my bottoms, which quickly joined my top. Unfortunately, the dream didn’t go any further. Why is it that in my x-rated dreams, it’s either me doing myself or about to get it on with someone, but never actually getting it on? Oh well, it was still kind of funny.
Eight out of ten doses down and I still have symptoms. Yes, they’ve improved, but they’re still there—burning, frequent and urgent need to pee, leaking, WBCs still present, and earlier, a little back pain. Taking extra probiotics has been helping balance out the yucky feeling in my mouth. Still, I have a bad feeling I’m going to be seeing Rhonda sooner than I’d like. I think it’s just a stubborn UTI at this point, possibly with stones, rather than cancer because I haven’t had any more spotting or bloody urine. Microscopic traces could still be there, but I don’t think that’s what’s happening.
Even though the pulmonologist’s office said it wasn’t needed, I received a referral from Rhonda in the mail today.
Tom donated, so he was tired today. He’s planning to stay up late tomorrow night because he has to fast for labs and doesn’t want to get up at 5:00 in the morning. Buying the Orajel jinxed him in a good way because as soon as it arrived, his gum pain backed off. I wish my problems would back off! Oh, to feel good and sleep well for just one week. Just one lousy week!
People often ask about my unwanted psychic ability. Well, most of it is unwanted. I don’t want to sense or dream about bad things happening to myself or others that end up happening in some form or another. However, I don’t mind sensing or dreaming of trivial or positive things that turn out to be true. They say it has something to do with thought transference—when we think of someone, it supposedly causes us to pop into their minds. The closer the connection you have to the person, not necessarily physical, the more a psychic tends to pick up. I’ve picked up things, good and bad, about people I only knew online. I’d be just as concerned if I had a nightmare about my cyber buddies as I would be if it involved me or Tom. I’m not saying dreaming of Alyssa means I popped into her mind. I’m just saying it’s a bit more extreme with me and others who are extra intuitive. If anything, I doubt Alyssa has thought of me in years. I’m still surprised I dream of her more than Stacey. I had a Stacey dream not too long ago, and it seemed like she was pissed at me about something. I still don’t know what it is about Alyssa, but I think it was mostly her smile, and I loved how tall she was. Light-eyed blondes aren’t usually my type, but there was something about her.
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