2 AM cooking in A transparent lockbox

Something that struck me while baking at 2 AM was that I am really difficult to deal with in many ways. For instance, I bake at 2 AM. I get so much joy from cooking, baking, and doing most of my schoolwork at night. It is when I feel most productive and sharp. And in doing it, I was just like “Oh fuck, what if I was living with someone where I couldn’t do this??”
I’ve just been thinking a lot lately about what I desire from relationships, whether platonic, romantic, or familial. and in summary, I want to be around people who are always there for each other if in a crisis. Where even if you fight, if something happened and you were in need, they’d be there for you, and you for them. I just have been interacting with some people lately who don’t really care to ask questions or try to learn about you but just want an outlet.
I know that I’m unconventional and difficult sometimes, but if needed I will always be there to help however I can.
I don’t care if they could be with anybody else, I just care that I can be with them. By that I mean, I don’t need to be surrounded by people who worship me or treat me like I’m the best thing in the world, but rather connections where we can accept each other’s faults and be at peace with that.