A soft smile to my visualized depression in Runaway
- July 6, 2022, 4:35 p.m.
When things are good, on a consistent good, I find it challenging to approach the door to my depression, to my anger. There’s just no fuel or motivation to want to explore it because things are good. But it provides more stability to exploring it.
Alright so in therapy we’ve touched on the idea of “parts of self.” Idk imagine all your parts of self - not quite sure what that means yet - but they all live in a house or a community or whatever. I have visualized my part of self that is depressed. She is small, young, fearful, and hopeless. I think she makes me uncomfortable so I avoid her. Then when she appears or shows herself because of x, y, z reasons I don’t know how to confront her. She takes over until she is soothed then goes back in hiding and I don’t have to deal with her anymore.
Until she does come back around. And then chaos. So this is me making a gesture to get to know her. Hear what she has to say. Be there for her. Align her in my part of self so she doesn’t feel so shut out. I can understand if she is hesitant.