??? in To not be here

I don’t exactly know what I’m writing about or what this entry is exactly intended for but, I’m starting to discover myself now and finding more interests in things I wanna do. For example, I really wanna get back into skateboarding again and I’m really interested in playing the piano and ukulele. I started talking wayyy more at school and all the P.E. coaches are trying to encourage me to join the basketball team because in their eyes I’m good enough to help the school win. I really do kind of like basketball, being able to bring the ball where you want and controlling where it goes and the excitement and intensity of wondering if you’re gonna make a basket or not. Same for skateboarding, the excitement of learning a new trick and the process along the way, the friends you make who share the same love for skateboarding. Idk. Maybe I just enjoy thinking of life as a fairy tale or something, maybe I enjoy things much more than they are meant to be enjoyed. I just wanna at least be an expert in something and help teach people what I have learned. I also gave up my phone for a month and I’ll get it back November 2nd. Life is going good without it so far :)