What does not kill you makes you stronger. I don’t necessarily agree with that statement. Something might not kill you but leave you so broken and emotionally devastated that you are unable to come back from the edge. I feel that way some days, like why bother even trying what difference will it make. Other days I am on top of the world and feel like nothing can stop the forward momentum. My mind is a rollercoaster ride.
I am leaving for Alaska in a few days and I am kind of stoked. I have never been that far north or on a cruise that lasts that long. It has been a long time since I have been away from work for this length of time also. Hope they don’t figure out they don’t really need me. LOL I have a list of things to get done before I go but most will not make it because they are out of my control. I think I am going to look into taking some php classes at the local college. I need to be better equipped to handle things that take place in the back end of the website and be able to make changes that require that level of coding. I tired Linked In Learning and just have trouble coming back to it. A class would force me to focus on it and the it finished and learned.
My daughter seems to be doing okay these days. Not better by any stretch but I think it has been several weeks since she last cut. She got a job at Aéropostale and seems pretty excited about that. I hope it lasts. She has only worked three days and is complaining that she does not have more hours. She is holding up better than I thought she would while working with the public. The social anxiety does not seem to be too bad right now. She is back to wanting a dog and they are talking about sending her boyfriend away to military school. I don’t know if that will happen or not but it is impacting her. He is not the guy I envisioned her with but he does not seem like a total piece of shit either so there is that.
I am going to try and journal while I am on the cruise. Hopefully the piece and quite of being on the boat and all will help me collect my thoughts. With luck there will be a slew of entries when I get back. Four more days to go.