No matter how you are feeling in a day it’s really easy to change whatever it is that day because it’s always mind over matter and if you can self talk yourself out of it then that is even better. I can do this when I am not feeling like my self and I am feeling tired and sluggish but all it takes is one positive thought and life will continue for the better.
And when something bad happens there is no sense to be one of those who just gives up because there is so much in life that is way better and even the people around you will help. And you can always pick up the phone and call someone just to be proven that there is others out there who do care about you and are happy you called them.
I can remember when I went into my depression and how I got out of it and it was my son who did that for me. And he didn’t have to say a word but then he wasn’t talking then but it was watching him sleep and thinking just how lucky he is to have a parent like me and I had a son like him and slowly I started to realize that not having a partner was not the end of the world and he didn’t even care about us because if he did he would have been a better parent to my son and maybe a better something else to me. But now that he has died I do think about how his life could have been and the relationship he could have had with his son. But then I just look at his life and my life and think that we both came out better people and have a better understanding of what it’s like to be sick.
I have been told that I am toxic but I like to think it’s because I have a different way of thinking and when that word is said to me I never know how I am toxic and what I have done to be toxic. But I think it starts when your parents are toxic then you are toxic because that is the only way you know how to be. And the kind of relationship you have with your family is what makes you the person you are. And everyone’s “normal” is never the same as someone else’s. And besides there is no real definition of “normal” in the dictionary.
Onto something else....
I am hoping that after hubby and I come back from running our errands that we can order pizza or Chinese instead of me cooking and making more of a mess in my kitchen. I know we are going to be leaving later this morning but I am not sure what time we will be back and if hubby will be watching hockey but I do know I will be going for my nap so then that might force hubby to think about ordering in. I know I am lazy but then I deserve to be not working 24/7.
Onto something else.....
I need to stop here and now. Do have a great day and Be Kind, Be Calm, Be safe and behave.
Last updated June 07, 2021