Why do I want to loose weight, what is my real goal. I keep saying it is so that I don’t have to buy new pants and shirts but that is not really the truth. I hate myself how in my current condition. I hate that I can’t walk around the block without my kids asking if I am okay, that I need a grab a cart to walk around the supermarket and that my physical condition impacts what I want to do with my family and friends. I had a friend tell me the other day that I could not rent a jet ski because I would not be able to physically handle it. That is a hell of a blow to the ego. I want to live a better life. I want to wear the boots I bought without the fear of how I am going to look pulling them on. I fucking just want to be a better me. So I don’t know what my YBP is but I know it does not involve me weighting this much and not being able to do for myself the things I want to do.